Im done with xanga. Im done with a lot things.....Im done with hurting and being weak. Im gonna just except things for how they are even if they arent how i want them.

Starting all over once again, maybe wont be so bad. Thats all i can think of to do that might make things even just a little better. That would make me happy...if things were even the slightest bit better.

Im mad because you can make me mad. I mad because you can make me feel anything but happy...And it should be that way. I should be able to just be happy.

My grandpa died last night...that was really hard on me...i havent really been able to sleep much...I miss him already. Losing your only grandpa that you were actually close with is really hard.

So ive been out of school for the week because i got whooping cough...go figure. fucking retarded.

Basically in a nut shell life kinda blows right now.

I more mad at myself then at you Noah...because i told myself not to be with you for this very reason and i didnt listen to myself and now im sittin here upset and hurt and i know its my fault because i let fall back into a relationship with you and i never should have.

I told you i couldnt be with you because of how he hurt me and i couldnt go threw that again because it is just too hard. You told me you wouldnt hurt me and that he just took advantage of me and you would never do that. It took you awhile but sure enough i gave in thinking and hoping you would be different. For awhile you were.....and now look at me you already fucked me over just like he did....lying to me about where you were and not answering my phone calls. Did you just get with me to screw me over? I knew i shouldnt have been with you i knew if from the start i told you that and now i know why because just like everyother guy you proved me right once again that every guy fucks girls over....i hope your real fucking happy and i hope it makes you feel good and like a bigger person.

At home sick....ugh...on a friday...soooo gay! and im in a bad mood.

Its like im invisable to you, like you dont even care. You always say you do you always say you'll try harder. But every night i wait for your call and i always end up calling you because you forgot or you were just too busy....All i ask for is a little attention is that too much to ask?

<33Lindsay Lou

Blah....Just kinda in a bummed mood...not really sure why... I miss my Noah...Even though i was with him a few hours again i still miss my boo!

Florida in 2 weeks! Deff. excited about that!  Getting a nice tan and just bumming on the beach will be AMAZING! but ima miss my Noah baby! awww....10 days with out will suck!

I absolutly loooooove a my girls, Bug, Carri,Christa,Abby, and Julia!! You girls are great and soooo much fun! tehe!

Noah your great even though you ditch me bitch!  hehe baby i love being with you! Youre such a sweetie!